when do you realize that you are just o.k.?
you're not great you're not bad you are just o.k.
your personal life is fucking fabulous but your head doesn't feel right.
you realize this isn't someone else's fault or problem...your mother wasn't still breast feeding you at six years old and your father didnt touch you in your naughty place...you just couldnt win the race you were in... even though you had all of the cars.
when do you cry?
when do you apologize?
when do you write letters saying, i wish i could i have been more?

you dont...

you sit up, stand up, grab your balls and cough. realize that you are what you are...and chances are...you are better than most. winning isnt always being the best ever...its being the best in the situation you are in.
its being able to say thank you, can i help you...and fuck you in the same conversation...

so anyway...im back and i want to say thank you for the support you showed after my last post... i want you to know that if there is anything i can do to help any of you...fuck you! because im back and you know what...?i have all of the cars...and im winning the race.